I am SO sad!
I hadn't cried for days. Days and nights were filled with exhausting tasks and I had no time to feel sad. I got up, made myself look pretty, and smiled and talked in front of people. But suddenly today, after getting a little message from him, I collapsed. I cried and cried and cried. Like a puppy dog who got lost, I didn't know what to do. I lost my sense of directions. I circled around, sat on the floor and collapsed. I felt so lonely, so lonely. Where are you, my love? Do you even know that I'm still crying?
I know I should get over it, forgetting about you, giving up all hope...but how is that a happy future? Where am I going to deposit my love? I don't understand. How can so much love and feelings are produced and there's no recipient? How can the world be balanced this way?